Passing On the Wisdom – Remembering My Grandmother

Passing On The Wisdom

Almost a year since my grandmother Eden has gone onto the other side of this life. Almost a year I have been thinking of her, and of my mother without her and how my own journey will be as my mother moves into her future. This painting is dedicated to them, called Passing on The Wisdom as it shows a mother and daughter, and the mother is passing her wisdom onto the daughter as signified by the fabric and design patterns on their clothing. The designs are symbolic of information, of ideas, or precious stories passed from one generation to the next. Life without grandmothers is like looking at a garden without a rose. Plenty of pansies, and cosmos and even daffodils, but no rose to smell and be in ecstasy over. I miss them both, Eden McCloud and Helen Davis more than I can say. I am thinking of them today…and sending them love off into the ethers. May God grant my wish to send them a message from me… I love you.

My grandmother Eden taught me to sew, darn, embroider, hem and set my hair in curlers. I never got very good at any of those things, but I did them when I was with her as a way of being with her in her arts. I can see her now, sitting the light, considering her stitching. We listened to Elvis and watched Jeopardy. She tended me like a little flower. Feeding me and petting me. And making me healing herbal remedies whenever I needed anything at all.  Her color was blue. Her whole home, blue. And when I was shopping for my new kitchen table cloth this week, blue came to me. Blue has never come, Turquoise, yes, but not blue. I think grandmother brought it.

Blue Kitchen dedicated to my grandmother

Blue Kitchen dedicated to my grandmother

The photo above of my kitchen also features the little dinner I had with my mother, only I was not with my mother because she is so far away. But I made a white bean soup and little the candle and turned on the music and sat with her, and my grandmother, and heart full of love. Now I have to buy a bunch of blue things!

Here is a poem my mother Caron McCloud wrote for my grandmother Eden. I included a link below if you want to read the other seven poems written for her by my beloved mother whose birthday was April 25. Thank you Grandmother Eden, for giving birth to my mother and for passing your wisdom onto her.

HOW THESE SPELLS BEGIN

Eden is in her sun room.
She is surrounded by a jungle of house plants—her
Garden of Eden. It is morning—her
time of day. In the corner of the window screen
a spider annexes silver and magenta veined leaves
from the Wandering Jew into her doilied domain.
A tiny lizard suns herself on the toe of Eden’s slipper.

Eden is standing at her ironing board.
She is sewing, of course—a Wonder Woman uniform
for my doll. She is frowning her famous frown
of intense concentration—that frown
that I diligently practice throughout my childhood,
because my mother is beautiful and I want
to look as much like her as I can, as soon as possible.

http://www.caronmccloud.com/page/page/4989007.htm


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2 Responses to Passing On the Wisdom – Remembering My Grandmother

  1. Shiloh,

    You are so wonderful for honoring us the way that you do. Having your dinner with me on my birthday when we are so far away from each other (geographically) made me cry.

    Some people seem to think I am a little whacky in my insistence that I must be near my children. They suggest things like, “Well, can’t you talk on the phone a little more often?”

    They mean well, but don’t understand. It’s a physical thing. I need to see the light on your cheek bones, drop in on each other spontaneously, curl up together on the couch.

    Needing to see and hold my children is like needing food and sleep. Please pray that all things come together in celebration of these bonds and bring me home soon.

    Mama

  2. Kim

    Your blog about your grandmother is very touching. My grandmother was and still is very dear to me. I created a memorial for her on Find A Grave a few years back. I posted the link if you would like to see her and read about her sometime.

    The painting you created and dedicated to your grandmother is beautiful! I love the colors!

    Sincerely,
    Kim

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